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Monday, June 08, 2009
Thursday, June 04, 2009
woke up with a bad feeling, but shall not elaborate more.
Realised that some people are good at some things, while others are not.
I'm not good at resisting, but I'm good at denying.
When u feel numb, everything comes easy also.
Do I really have the strength to do what I said I would??
I really wonder.. and fear.
Realised that some people are good at some things, while others are not.
I'm not good at resisting, but I'm good at denying.
When u feel numb, everything comes easy also.
Do I really have the strength to do what I said I would??
I really wonder.. and fear.
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
In The Valley
It is just like me to single-handedly wreck everything,
even what I had thought was the most blissful thing ever to happen to me.
So many times I have to mentally slap myself when the thought of going back in time seems so bloody tempting.
I slap and chide; God is still in control, I may regret till overflow but time will never turn back.
It is so selfish of me to want to be loved yet will not risk loving.
And I slap myself again.
I once read that by loving others, it's giving them the power to hurt me.
Have I been living by that statement ever since?
It's wrong.
I want to wake up from this bad dream.
even what I had thought was the most blissful thing ever to happen to me.
So many times I have to mentally slap myself when the thought of going back in time seems so bloody tempting.
I slap and chide; God is still in control, I may regret till overflow but time will never turn back.
It is so selfish of me to want to be loved yet will not risk loving.
And I slap myself again.
I once read that by loving others, it's giving them the power to hurt me.
Have I been living by that statement ever since?
It's wrong.
I want to wake up from this bad dream.
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Song For You.
就请你给我
多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走 .
***
Heard this song at Toast Box just now, very nice. Says something so important in such a simple and straightforward manner for me. I enjoyed myself, had great fellowship, but perhaps not such a good DS. But I'm sure we all went away learning something. (:
and God held my hand the whole way today.
***
I want to play Taboo with phee and "I take knife, push you in lift" DGG someday. (:
***
*edited*
I just learnt something, it really gave me direction. (:
Accepting a person is not the same thing as approving all of one's behaviour. Nor is acceptance the same as tolerance. Someone may tolerate me - may put up with my existence and even my faults - but there's no healing in that. This is part of the reason why Jesus was such a magnet for people. He genuinely like them.
Acceptance is an act of the heart. To accept someone is to affirm to them that you think it's a very good thing that they are alive. We communicate this in a hundred ways, but the most powerful way is to listen with patience and compassion as they reveal their deep secrets.
- John Ortberg
***
I've made mistakes and learnt this the hard way, but only through mistakes do we really get to learn. Thank you God for everything, and I really mean everything, in my life.
多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走 .
***
Heard this song at Toast Box just now, very nice. Says something so important in such a simple and straightforward manner for me. I enjoyed myself, had great fellowship, but perhaps not such a good DS. But I'm sure we all went away learning something. (:
and God held my hand the whole way today.
***
I want to play Taboo with phee and "I take knife, push you in lift" DGG someday. (:
***
*edited*
I just learnt something, it really gave me direction. (:
Accepting a person is not the same thing as approving all of one's behaviour. Nor is acceptance the same as tolerance. Someone may tolerate me - may put up with my existence and even my faults - but there's no healing in that. This is part of the reason why Jesus was such a magnet for people. He genuinely like them.
Acceptance is an act of the heart. To accept someone is to affirm to them that you think it's a very good thing that they are alive. We communicate this in a hundred ways, but the most powerful way is to listen with patience and compassion as they reveal their deep secrets.
- John Ortberg
***
I've made mistakes and learnt this the hard way, but only through mistakes do we really get to learn. Thank you God for everything, and I really mean everything, in my life.
Monday, June 01, 2009
Praying For Directions
me, lays, wu chong at the super-sci-fi-everywhere-is-touch-screens-and-3D fusionopolis wahaha, robin is helping us to take this photo. we were wearing super 3D glasses dat costs bout $190+ each and were watching 3D movie trailers, cool but dizzy.
Yan the Tourist.***
Prayers needed;
I am confused and I am lost.
But this time I feel God's presence right by me - really as if I'm falling into healing hands. And it's possibly the only thing keeping me calm and breathing.
I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do,
and it's hard to do what I should do.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Todayy.
opened my firefox to be blown away (in a bad way) by this.
okay, by doing this to my homepage, advert has just succeeded in making me twitch in irritation and appallation.
but I still won't say advert is evil.
many other things are.
*grumbles*
on to better things ahahaha.watch The Young Victoria on my own just now.
was chatting with shun bout me watching alone again;
sent so many smses but nobuddy could watch with me *sigh*, oh wells, I think if I had gone with someone else, I wouldn't enjoy it as much cus I know many of the ppl I asked won't really like it. and I wouldn't be able to bear the critics or even having to exhaust myself defending it. /:
but nice and sweet show! I see it as propaganda, but one dat I very willingly swallow down. (:
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Tired but Happy Time! #2
At wanling's 21st bday party chalet on friday. Girl power! :D
Me & Jas with our hardwork. had fun and put in much effort together with huimin & jos3 haha! can't believe right after block end I had to do craftwork.. but it was fun :D***
Cafe duty today!
And hello, my name is Estella Nasi Lemak. hehehe!
Tho the nasi was like porridge, I think I had fun and learnt alot from the cafe ppl yet again, esp my shifu of the day, jingwei. I think the cafe-ers are a very tough, practical yet welfare-ish group of talented cooks. (: I helped do many things today! *beams* but my fave was sweeping the floor and washing the toilets wahahaha! d:
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